Guess what? Fandom still matters. So I’ve been doing this channel for one year now which is weird so it feels like it’s been a lot longer than a year. It also feels like it’s been like no time at all but now that I’m thinking about it I feel like I have accomplished and learned a lot over this past year of making videos.
So I’ve beenthinking a lot about upcoming content – like I’m going to be doing VEDA again which I’m excited and nervous for and just like rethinking the way i do some of my videos like the How Do You Fan series and different things like that.
So I’m hoping to continue to improve my content like I have been over the past year. I’ve gotten a lot better at making thumbnails or just talking to a camera as you do and I want to continue to improve because what’s the point of doing something if you’re not trying to do it to the best of your abilities, right? So one year hoping to make the next year as good as possible.
So I wanna tell a little story that I think is very timely and um funny, funny to me at least yesterday I went to the homepage of YouTube and under the recommended section there was a Vlogbrothers video that stuck out to me because I noticed how young Hank Green looked in the thumbnail and so I looked at it and it was from five years ago.
So I decided, hey, I might as well watch it. The title which was “Grab it by the testicle.” I remember, I remembered liking that video for whatever reason, so I was like hey, let’s re-watch it and see what Vlogbrothers five years ago was saying because I had watched them at that point I’ve been watching them for about seven years now i guess.
So I clicked on the video to check it out it. It was from 2011 and I’ve been watching Vlogbrothers since 2010 so I had seen it before and I actually at that time had re-watched all the videos I’ve seen iIm pretty sure every Vlogbrothers video that’s been made so knowing that I’ve already seen it and that that title sounded familiar, I thought i would watch it just to see what it was like just what the heck, you know, ione of those things.
And it was Hank’s poem to the graduating class of 2011 for both high school and college graduates. Now that was the year that I graduated high school so…now I knew why I had remembered the title of that video because it had meant something to me at the time.
So then re-watching it now, now that I have gone through college and finished that, and I’ve been out for almost two years now and I’ve changed a lot and I’ve done a lot of new things like this channel, for one.
It was really timely and appropriate for me to watch this as I’m reflecting back on everything I’ve done on the channel over the last year and how I’ve been growing as a person. I’ve also been in my new job for just about a year as well and when I started this channel a year ago I was in a really bad place job-wise.
I’d actually gotten fired from this awful like emotionally manipulative job that I was in. They were…they treated me so terribly i don’t want to go into it anymore than that, but I was in a bad place and I needed a creative outlet and I’d always wanted to do YouTube, so I finally started the channel when I was at that point where like I was upset every day and then finally fired from this awful job and then two weeks after that happened I got hired at my new job partially because I’d started this channel I think.
That was something that they liked that I was starting to make and produce videos. So things have really come a long way for me, not just in creating but in in my work as well so it was all very interesting.
A lot of things were coming together as I rewatched this video from Hank for the 2011 graduating class. And I’ll make sure to link that video down below if you want to watch it and see what I’m talking about but now I just want to discuss a few quotes from it that are particularly poignant for me.
Some things that really made me think when I re-watched it and that are meaningful to me and how I progressed as a creator and as a person. I really liked the part about how it will taste like hope and diet coke and rainbows but they will also be pain because that’s what like growing and becoming a person is about.
There are going to be beautiful moments and they’ll remind you of the most beautiful things in your life but there’s also going to be pain and you have to remember and learn from both types and I think the thing that was most meaningful to me was when he was talking about how finishing school is not ending learning.
I, at the end of my senior college a kind of thought it was – that if I didn’t go on to grad school I was done learning and I had to go and just do a thing over and over, whatever that thing may be. You just go and you do a thing and you don’t learn, you to do.
But that’s obviously so untrue so, hearing Hank say that in this video, something that I watched years ago and thought differently of, and being able to look back on that now and agree with it, it’s nice.
It’s nice to know that yes you do keep learning. Like he says, you’re going to keep learning one way or another whether it’s and then he lists, list off all of these things, so yes, I’ve learned how to make videos.
I’ve learned how to write about things differently like I used to…I mean I wrote papers about literature all the time in college but now i’m writing these like short video bullet points for things I care about.
I’ve learned so many things at my job like I learn something new practically every day – like never stop learning as long as you care to learn. I’ll watch videos online to learn how to do Photoshop, something I’d never learned before.
So thats…that’s something that’s really important to me in that I try to remember as often as possible, I can always learn new things. I can always seek out information and knowledge and that’s an important thing to remember as we finish our formal educations.
Another thing I wanted to note was how Hank says basically, grab life by the testicles but be careful of people because people are what matters most. You know, if you don’t treat people well what’s the point of doing other things well.
Nerdfighteria was the first fan community I was a part of, I think. I was a fan of many things before that – Harry Potter, Pokemon, so many different things, so many book series. But when I found that community it was the first time that I’d felt like I could engage with people on like the same things that we like and have conversations and say that I’m a part of this this wider community and then that community has led me to find other communities that have been so important to me over the past couple of years, especially this last year of making videos and talking about communities and the things that I like.
From these communities I’ve been inspired to create, and creating has been really important and fulfilling to me over this past year. So to come across this video from five or six years ago that I looked at with a totally different perspective when I watched it the first time and to come at it now with all of this new knowledge and these experiences, it was just – it was an interesting moment, to say the least.
Now I have a creative identity and I’m a part of communities doing amazing things and I am excited and passionate to keep trying these things and to have another year of making these videos hopefully always getting better.
So thank you for coming on this journey with me. Thank you for watching and hopefully thank you for sticking around. Well, I will see you in my next video. Okay and based on topic of this video talking about a Vlogbrothers Hank Green thing and considering it’s the one year of my Youtube channel, I might as well do a silly happy dance, right? and if you’re not in the Nerdfighter community, just know happy dances are a thing that have been on the Vlogbrothers channel first for a long time that’s just something silly they do to celebrate, so – That was ridiculous okay bye.